What did it cost you? Why would you give it away so freely?
I paid a dear price for my freedom. But sometimes I find that I give it away so cheaply.
When I give it away so cheaply I wonder how much I truly value it?
Moreover do I want to pay another price for it?
I had struggles growing up, just like most people. However I did not respond to those struggles with the healthiest of choices. I spent most of my 20s in depression crying out to God to free me. I started my healing journey in my early 30s - I went through every healing program I could get my hands on. I was desperate to get to that place of freedom I saw in other people. I forgave, I released, I accepted, I asserted, I proclaimed - and the list goes on. Each of these actions are a synopsis of a lot of time and self evaluation. My pursuit of freedom cost me a lot of time, money and energy. I am happy to say that I feel like I have gained a significant measure of freedom. I still want more - but I do have a foundation on which I can build a bright future.
My emotional freedom cost me a lot.
I might even have taken pride in the cost I paid for my freedom.
Yet I find times that I resort to my old ways of 'stinkin thinkin'. It is so easy to slip. It is easy to resort to the old paths - they had been so ingrained in my life.
Who can save me from such wretched path?
Praise be to Jesus for only through him do I have true freedom.
The cost I paid for my freedom does not compare to the cost he paid for mine. He values my freedom MUCH more than me. My eyes are on him to truly free me.
23 But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. 24 O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? 25 I thank God—through Jesus Christ our Lord! Romans 7:23-25 (NKJV)I am humbled before him and his mercy. I am nothing without him. He is everything.
I set my sail with the right attitude/thinking and wait for him to move me to the next place.
